Showing Danny the entry on the screen

You are going to show Danny the three lines rather than say them, because you know you will soften it if it goes through your mouth. The night you wrote them you did not show him, you put a day on it in writing, and that day came and went with the entry unshown. You have now logged not doing it three times.

You have put a fresh day on it, Wednesday evening when he is back from Hendersonville and there is nothing on, and this time you wrote down why the order matters, because you want to have told him before you sit in that room.

The screen is the workaround for a thing you have watched yourself do repeatedly. Out loud, the fear becomes a sentence about being good at communicating about money, which has no letter in it, no Feldman year in it, and nothing he would have to answer.