PATTERN
Extremely well informed about the thing I am not doing
What it is
You give the short, warm, persuasive speech about why clinicians need their own work, and you have not been in therapy for four years.
How it affects your life
You stopped in the autumn after the Feldman year and told yourself it was money, which was true at the time. The money got better and you did not go back, and the not-going-back has never had a reason attached to it, it has just been the arrangement. What you think is actually in the way is that you would have to describe that year to somebody out loud, in order, as a thing that happened to you.
Evidence
Latest 5 of 6
“That I have a name and a number and have not rung it.”
Reinforced later
Read the entry →“The fourth is in Weaverville, which is forty minutes, and whose website is so earnest about somatic work that I had an immediate and uncharitable reaction that I am not proud of.”
Reinforced later
Read the entry →“Looked up therapists who take people in the field.”
Reinforced later
Read the entry →“I told myself at the time it was money, which was true... And then the money got better and I did not go back, and the not-going-back has never had a reason attached to it, it has just been the arrangement.”
First mention
Read the entry →“Four years of being extremely well informed about the thing I am not doing.”
First mention
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